I went for my regular jog, today, as a part of my post partum weight loss plan. Then I found myself getting conscious about my fat and didn’t do the jog because when fat people jog or run they shake and the world shakes with them. With every time I passed someone I thought, “will this person be laughing at me?” That got me to wondering what goes on in the minds of my fellow fitness freaks as they walk and jog their fat away. Then somewhere in the tunes, I got lost in trains of thought about -
My favorite type of music is Rock. Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Aerosmith, Bon Jovi, Bryan Adams. Just then I realized “The Only Thing That Looks Good On Me”; “Take A Look Around”; “Bad Medicine”; “Don’t Speak”; Represent Cuba (by Orishas) – are some of my favorite favorite songs and certainly mood uplifting. And that my Favorite Pass time is thinking about my labor and the first time I held my baby and the first time I fed her and how it felt and the tiny little thing that she was and how much she has matured in the past 6 months. Oh in the past 6 months, I found that post partum weight loss WAS INDEED not a myth contrary to what the ‘old fat ladies’ said (They once told me I’d be fat after pregnancy and it’d remain. HELLO! I’ve lost 19 pounds already. Do I hear you muffle your “I told you so?”) Then I thought of good dance moves to this Orishas song, one of those songs that makes me feel 16! And then I thought of me in my previous slim body and that brought to mind my Zahra dancing and smiling.
I realized I was smiling.
Again I was blessed with a Happy Realization. If I was lost in my thought, maybe others are too. And there are other fat women and men trying to work it off.. And may be some were, but not every one was LOL’ing at me!
Welcoming myself to this new world of oblivion.
